I blurted this post out on facebook in the wee hours this morning. A friend asked to forward it so here it is in sharable blog-form, all rough and raw like my heart…
Ah this familiar nut. How to gently guide new lovers into ways of being that are not modelled after male-arousal-system-centric porn? How to gently let them know that my arousal system just doesn’t work that way and that what they’ve been taught by example their whole life is only half the picture. That they are actually going to have to change from the base assumption up before they become the extraordinary lover I know they can be… Before my needs can truly be met… before their potential pleasure can be significantly and dramatically expanded too…
As a Conscious Sexuality practitioner and Escort I can guide them. They expect it. They seek me out precisely because I will lead them into lived experiences of engaging with their sexuality… and mine… from a much richer place. A place that truly gets female-bodied arousal and taps into far more of their own.
But how to gently guide a personal lover without falling into teacher/work mode and without crushing their ego? Afterall it’s not their fault. The information just hasn’t been available for them to learn in most cases! They are not selfish. They are glorious sexual beings following their delicious intuition and what they’ve been exposed to. Most of them are very eager to please me!
It is just that our whole culture hasn’t even had a language for the kind of sex that fulfils me. Female-bodied folk haven’t even known it about ourselves to ask for it! It’s been cruelly invisible and tucked away in the wordless places on a collective cultural level… Only catching glimpses of it but not truly, intentionally letting it pour on out in the gushing, rushing wonder that is possible.
The female-bodied arousal sexual model that really harnesses our full potential is new for us all. As is embodied mindful sexuality in general. Holistically connected sexuality… conscious sexuality…
It is just not as easy as asking new lovers for certain acts to be done a certain way. The whole damn sexual ideology has to shift in its foundations.
I know how to get there. I cannot be satisfied by the old sexual paradigm anymore. I have to guide my lovers there… but back to the old nut… working out how to show them without ruining everything… It is particularly tricky when I crave someone who can take the lead so I can let go but they are intimidated by my knowledge.
It is such a tricky fix. Perhaps I am supposed to know the answer already but I don’t. This unknowing gives me empathy for my lovers and their unknowing.
About the Author: Artemisia de Vine is a Sydney-based escort and conscious erotic arts practitioner who offers sessions that are a mixture of learning, playing and exploring sexuality. She has two websites, one for those more enticed by the sensual end of the spectrum and one for those more wired to explore kink and BDSM. You can join her mailing list or follow her on Twitter.